I really really hope that this baby is coming very soon, because I am as grouchy as a bear woke up in the middle of winter. UGH. You would think my boys would steer clear of me, but instead they are harassing, arguing, fighting and being absolute hellions.
Ok, maybe not that bad -- but it sure FEELS like it to me. I wish they would just go off and LEAVE ME ALONE.
It doesn't help that I'm still having contractions -- just not regularly. DH had a late call yesterday that I had him cancel bc I really thought things were going to pick up. Um, they didn't. And we lost out on the potential sale. But, I was in tears with the boys being loud and obnoxious and defiant, so he stayed home because the call was over an hour away at 7PM, which meant he wouldn't have been home until 10 or 11PM.
I've had maybe 3 or 4 contractions today. It's the not knowing right now that is really getting to me. DH is anywhere from 10 to 150 miles away from home at any given moment and it's stressing me out. If I need my sister during the day, she's an hour commute away. I'm not at all calm about this whole process at the moment.
AND, baby has defintely slowed down. Which is either a sign of impending labor -- or of a problem. I'm supposed to go in today sometime anyway for a non-stress test, so at least that will put me at ease somewhat. Provided someone can watch the boys at the precise moment they have an open bed in triage at the hospital.
My stress level is too high at the moment. I recognize this. If only the recognition could lead to the correction of it.