Thursday, July 29, 2010
I took this picture as we were leaving the Arizona Science Center. I had a rare day free; Nate has been asking to visit since May; we chose to make the drive downtown yesterday.
The kids all had a great time at the Science Center, and especially loved the planetarium show of Arizona night skies.
Me? I'm going to confess something. It's stressful to keep an eye on three kids. Lydia is extremely independent and has no problem walking away from me. The boys are interested in different things, and are independent enough to read exhibits on their own, and don't really need to stay with me when we're in the same exhibit.
But, it makes me nervous when I can't have my eyes on all three at the same time and the way the exhibits are set up it's difficult to be in the same area and be able to see everyone at once. My boys are great about coming when they hear me call, and I did my best to let them wander and look at things at their own pace / interest level -- but I was happy (relieved) to load them up in the car and head home.
I believe (hope) I did a good job of covering my unease while we were there, but it made for a cranky night for me. I don't want them to approach situations with fear, and I want them to feel confident and not spend every moment at my side -- so I work very hard at controlling my anxiety and not sharing it with them.
More than 4 hours of it, though, meant that I was worn out by evening and took it out on my dear husband. Thankfully, he's understanding, but I wish I didn't worry as I do.