I pulled my last post and I apologize if you happened to read it. (Although, Deb, I must tell you that your comment brought me to tears and touched me deeply. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.)
I am feeling sorry for myself and I know it. Shame on me!
I have always prided myself on having no regrets and living in the present. I don't know if it's turning 40, or a variety of other things, but I've been re=living much too many things lately and wishing I had made different decisions. Some little, some big -- but every decision made has brought me to this moment.
And because every decision has brought me to THIS moment -- with troubles and suffering -- but also great joy -- I cannot regret any of those decisions. My children are the light of my life and the song in my heart. (could I be more cliched? Oh, well) It may be time for new beginnings and I know I have the strength to start again.
The trials of the moment may be the kick in the pants I needed. Only time will tell.